I’m sick of the fear. I’m sick of every screen pushing that shit in my face. Including my own. So here is my ultimate fear diary page from yesterday. I purged that shit. For now. I am going to try to be hopeful, and as such, I am going to take my diary and focus it in a different direction. I’m a comedian at heart, and that is one of my strengths. Starting tomorrow, something different, but as real as it gets.
Sometimes I get lost on the page. Sometimes I have no idea what to draw (I actually have 1000 things to draw but this is my way of procrastinating) so I grab a sketchbook and throw something dumb on the screen. It’s almost like a phone doodle, except I am paying attention to the artwork as opposed to what’s on the other end. I’m getting ready to enact a change in my life. Details to follow. I have to work through it mentally. It isn’t easy.